LiLzYkAi iS BaCk To SeArCh FoR loVe...

`'`22 July 2007`'`

well.....here we go..its been a long time...
im back...and im not okie...friday had a game with csc...3 half
i played 2 half....the first half, i rested...ma kneeeeeeeeeeeee
coach come at 2nd half...so yar..i played....once a sportmans...
u will ignore the injuries till it worsen den u stop...
i guess tats me...im stubborn in this things...all i wan is to try to win glory
or victory for the team....effort is there...all i need is to push myself...
but once if i dropped, i will dropped

for now...im stil confused..i stil haf tat "thing", but other "thing" attract to me...
how m i to be kept in the dark???i myself dunno y i become like this...
how i wish....things to be diff

|LiLzYkAi BrEaKiNg aT 5:47:00 PM|

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`'`11 July 2007`'`

hmmm...haiz hectic schedule due to skool...and werk at nite...
well..ysterday...i guess i had stress so much on my left knee and it wen "keeetak"
i can feel some piercin pain at ma knee...haiz...so tired....
i cant even wake up to go for ma hockey trainin...

|LiLzYkAi BrEaKiNg aT 11:28:00 PM|

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`'`08 July 2007`'`

well....hmm....saturday go and collect ma bursary...meet izal....
and after go naik club...phunkbar...
well...tot of nt drinkin....kuz i haf prac the next morning...
however...chialat....lucky not drunk....juz hangover...
bkuz of tat, i lose concentration!!!!damn...i cant see the line...
friday...went out with lin,sham,yani,dan n suzie to orkid country club and bowl...
wahahhaha....den after tat hangout at town with izal....
tats all....darn...the hangover!!!!

|LiLzYkAi BrEaKiNg aT 8:03:00 PM|

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`'`05 July 2007`'`

well..its been days since i wrote an entry...
well..days pass by and i dunno...
my life is jus happy go lucky...
i juz stubborn....tonight in the hockey trainin...
i tink i nearly dislocate ma shoulder...and twisted ma toes..!!
damn im in pain at times

|LiLzYkAi BrEaKiNg aT 2:05:00 AM|

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`'`01 July 2007`'`

well....29 was ma bday...the next day watch soccer match at national stadium...
SPORE VS AUSTRALIA...spore was defeated...3-0...
and after tat when to the lights out...from 11-3am....
i juz like to chill,relax myself by listening to the music...
lookin people dancin...and grinnin...i juz cant....help to grin...
its juz seem like there is some barrier tat hold me on...
so yea....so tired lah...havin fun with frens...
so tired...when home eat den slep...

the next day...1 July...as i was sleepin...
there is a accomotion in ma family...
ma mum,dad n ma bro...
i juz cant help it....when they are arguein about the house...
haiz...i juz felt so useless..i cant help in aniway to support the fam
im workin but...juz to pay for ma expenses...tat i noe ma fam cant help..
like ma bills, my lisence, my books spending...
i felt so useless...i dunno whom i could turn to...
so many things/scene are playin in ma mind right now...
i duuno whom i could rest ma head on the shoulder
haiz....i juz hopin....1 day...i could juz turn ma family fate....

"aku adalah aku,
nyanyi kan lagu yg rindu
padamu wahai sygku
aku rindu selalu..."

|LiLzYkAi BrEaKiNg aT 9:03:00 PM|

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