"i DUNT noe if i was given a choice to test me"
As usual,start skool later stil i can be late for class
well...after the first class, acompany Yani to Toapayoh to buy Hp,
Lin was there too acompany her...so we three skip 1 lecture....
after that goin back to skol....meet her for a while and went to class...
after school...chill out for a while with the soccer girls
and headed straight to interchange..while walking...receive a msg...
hmmm..that's where i sit down for a while and think...
izzit a test given to me at that tym to make a decision...
to meet___ ?or jux when home straight..maybe...its not yet tym to delicate....
"UNEXPECTED DAY OUT"
hmmm....today start with me dyein ma hair..early in the morning...
about 3.00am...haha dun believe it right?tonight be dyeing again...
so today i wake up about 10 to purchase ma new HP...yeayea...new HP...so...NEw things lah...in the morn once i woke up im stuck to the com and was late to meet ma kuzie...so upgrade ma plan and new HP...sony eriksson...
after that i headed towards town...arrange to meet someone at 1pm....hee ended up 130pm...nobody is to blame...hee....well....actuali...i dun really scold if people are late if meets are arrange...hmmm...meet shaf for a pool of game...we played for 2 hours...and den grab lunch at BK...we chit chat and den went home....
hmmm...though its juz short chill out session haa.....
its ok that you are in a rush...i understand...
"MAIN TOPIC?U HAVE NO BALLS TO SHOW UP???"
welll..i wanna blog about 2 days before and i got this shit shout from this fucker or bitch called "haha"....damn it...dare u to shout but so scare to own up...
wats the hell wrong with u FUCKER?BITCH...once i noe who u are...
if u have the guts...show me....reply on ma tagboard again....
well....for the pass 2 days been chillin real lots lah...
thurs chill at scape park wit yani,shaz and shaf...tankz for the company...we go out again 1 day aite...and after that....meet ma buddy and chill at tamp...hmmm a secret tat he keep from me for about a year i suppose...well....nah..its ok bro...i stil appreciate it....
Today...play pool wit the soccer girls..yani,zara,dee,shaf and ma buddy....
haa...real trashin lah me kena....
normal man.....no more in pool table wakakakkaa....
and after that me and shahul when to Vivocity..such a romantik place...
but aint no1 special to bring there for a chill out day or nite...
chit chattin while lookin at the scenery maybe haha...
well..tats all....im so tired out lah whole day walkin around...
hmmm....
TO THAT FUCKER/BITCH...
OWN UP>>>>
"2nd dAy of Raya?"
well....today marks the date of 25 Oct...
hee..nahting special but its the 2nd day of raya...
so wat do i do on the 2nd day of raya?
well..i headed to skool...got klass lah....
im nw in Poly Life do not realli into this stuff like last tym...
so today what happen in skool...
wow!!!!!it makes me smile the whole day even in ma nap...
its start in the mornin..at about 0959 at YioChuKang Station...
hahahaahahahahahahahaha......
thought of goin to skool together wit Yani..but i was late abit...
instead i meet up wit a sweet girl...who is wearing an orangey-yellow baju kurung...hmmm....she put up a smile in me the whole day!!!yeayeayeayeayea...
but miz the chance to take pix with her...
today in skool...reali lah..i got damn bad diarrhoea...
3 tym in secutive hours......wahahahaha...eat mac den kum out...aiyo...
after skool do hwk ....
den go chill wit ma buddy for a while and headed home....
i sleep totally like a log ah.....due to yesterday tireness...
and i haf nice dream followed by a bad dream....
nice dream....hmmmm..yea its nice lah...
bad dream...well..its not a bad dream....it started out wit i was the 1 to be beaten from the back,back stab....outside a club...and den...me and ma buddy tailed him and beat him up to death....
wakakakak...stupid dreams...
WELL this is some of the photo on the first day of raye...
So how izit?lookin at me..so smart and handsome...
hmm....any girls wana take me and and go....
on the first day of raye!?kuz that the day i be lookin smart and hansome through out the day..wakakkakakka
"A DEDICATION TO ALL MUSLIMS CELBRATING HARI RAYE"
"GOD LET'S US LIVE TO THIS DAY TO CELEBRATE THIS VERY DAY...
TO BE KIND TO MANKIND
BE THOUGHTFUL TO THOSE WHO ARE UNFORTUNATE
SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL THE MUSLIMS IN THE WORLD!!!!"
"ANAK BULAN JATUH PADA MALAM RAYA
TAHUKAH ANDA BULAN SYAWAL AKAN MENJELMA
HARAP MAAFKAN AKAN SEGALA KESILAPAN SAYA
APE LAGI!!!MARILAH KITE BERAYA BERSAMA-SAMA"
salam ikhlas dari lilzykai
this goes out to all those who i have make mistake to,
any misunderstanding please forgive me...especially fira..
and others..ma SW classmates....yea...
to those not mention above...please dun be dishearted i dun forget you all
those who enter ma life..i appreciate it
thankz alot...peace out
"REFLECTION"
well..happen to blog now..after reaching home from werk..
hmmm...well..kinda busy ah and tired at work..so many
things that need to be done...
well...at work tym...i get maself a cut by ma penknife...
people will tink its not a big deal, but...
if the blood gushed out from ma finger and whenever i shake ma hand...
the blood dripped to the ground...damn..why m i so careless..
surely this marks something that will happen...either good or bad...
but i think its a bad thing...
well...yesterday...i dunno hw to put maself....
im in the middle..the middle man...
between a besty fren...and a fren that i like????
well....i kinda feel guilty lah...about wat happen...
im sorry aite fira...being so harsh on ya...
i noe u r havin probs....
onli that i care bout shaz as she finding hard for you
i feel awkward as you reply to me but not to her....
im sorry again....
"i understand the way you feel...
But i only guessin before i truly understand
Since then i don't know what running thru your mind
all i guess is that you are totally fine...
I wanna apologize to what i have done
Do i really been forgiven?
hmmm...im not so sure yet if i were to
i will be praying for the best thing
To you i will neva ever lying
kuz i dun wan you to break down and cryin
i dun wan to hear good bye
A wish from ma heart that you be fine"
Come fly with me baby
Yeah I'm the one
With the S on my chest
Forget about your ex
He don't know what love is
He just failed the test
Plus he don't treat you right
He keeps you crying all night
See, hes like your kryptonite
I came to give you their strength
So you can leave him behind
You can start all over
Just press rewind
Cause he don't understand that you're one of a kind
So sweet, so sexy and just so fine
I will never neglect you
Never have time to stress you
And always respect you
Girl you like a hidden treasure
"HAHAHAHA....ACCOMPANY MA FREN"
heeloo...im here juz get back to from town...
today finish skool at 1pm..so i accompany Yani to town
for her job interview??well....im not so sure why we get close now...
wakakkaa...no bad feelin aite Yani...love ya company too...
hahaa...so we go lido....
hmm..at the last lecture of today i realli sleepy lah...
kuz i onli sleep for 2 hours the night before...
after that...
me and Yani play a game of pool at Lucky Plaza....
haa...that's for today....
"Though there's seem air around the atmosphere
I feel like as if i was lost in a sphere
Now there's a girl come and came close
Dont you conclude anything if you see us
My care and concern will reserve for you
And hope you could sense that yourself
Finding me when you are in need
But...."
"3rd Day OF SCHOOL REFLECTION"
well...yesterday was the 3rd day of skool...
still slacking..i dun like open skool...
need to buy books and..im totally broke lah!!!
after the first week of skool...aiyo....
well..actuali i gt nahting to blog about..but...
about me,myself and i...
"people may look up for me when they in need
but do they realli mean it..or its juz for their own advantages?
well..im not so choosy...if i could help why not...
but not to take this as an advantage if u happen to find other best friends...
not dedicated this verse to anyone of you..but please...
tell yourself that place yourself in other people shoes aite...."
"WELL...THINGS CHANGE FOR ALL PEOPLE"
haaa...2moro im skoolin early lah...at 10am..i dunno if i can wake up lah...
hopefully pple wake me up hahah...well...why im not sleepin yet...
because im updating ma blog lah u pple..aiyo....
and juz get home from hockey training..its fun yeah!!!
hmmm...reach home and search for all ma writting utensils and calculator...
haa....found it....and all other stuff that i dun wish to look again but...
i started lookin at it..readin it...in silence...and feel the pain....
and i start to search for that thing...have i misplace it or haf i return it....
kinda feelin low now...but...here its goes again
"Memories are meet to be kept
Once reminized u cant stop thinkin of it..
So how should i put it on ma way?
I still have the urge and feelins....
Its kinda a foolish of me again...
What if it were to strike me again?
And i go....no no no no....
To play safe for me aite....
Kuz it cant happen again the same old things to me...
I gotta tell myself to be strong like pple told me
And im gonna prove it...
Proving it on ma ways and style...
Dont u ever try to talk me away and makin me go back to ma old ways...
Kuz that will neva eva be goin true again
Even if its a fact that the world be spinning all year round...
Im still here be waitin for the right tym and moment...
To make ma simple move and maybe.....
For me to find a new life that i would appreciate and keep it down in ma heart....
"FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL"
heeloo there...hmmm...so i tink yesterday is the first day of skool..
no more of waking up late...no more of flexi leave????
wah!!!need to start discipline myself again i guess...
hmmm...need to switch to study mood back of kai now...
well...need to find all ma stationary...aiyo...new ones i tink...
and ma calculator..i oso dunno where do i put em in ma room...
well....today first day of skool and something happen...
hmmmm....at macdonalds....
but kant tell ya here...wakakakaka....its unexpected...
hmmm...yesterday tried marcus SP....wakakkaa....i can reach liao...and ride...
so maybe....SP or KR once i pass ma lisence....
"in a middle of nowhere both of you appear,what should i do now...
i cant juz be a middle man and walked away
i juz waanna let both of you noe that i care but i cant have the chance now...
one is being totally a stranger..and 1 i guess its aint right....
so now...i will juz wait and looked....hopefully things will turn out easy to all of us..."
"ITs SUCH A MEMORABLE DAY/NIGHT"
hmmm...well...let me talk about yesterday...
yesterday i woke up late to meet yani to accompani her to buy her thingys
and she kinda like angry abit lah..but Lin is more later than me hahaha....
well.....
so the three of us go to bugis street at first,Yani bought a bag...
after that we headed to Cathay the Cathay if im not wrong...Yani lookin for a sandals but..unfortunately nope..so we walked2 in PS lah...and Lin make a move first...
So left me and Yani...we walked and Yani bought a Slipper..
after that we go to esplanade for some hiphop rap performance...
after some tym...we sit down and we start chattin...hmm well...
its bout our life lah...kinda sad...but well...life gotta move on...
den we eat our so called dinner at LJS Marina Square...
haha....1 combo 1 for both of us..but we share it haha....dun wan to eat so much...after that we sat down again...chillin tokin about love....
hahaha...i oso dunno lah why that kum out..maybe...Yani ask me....hahaak...
well...i would like to say thankz to Yani for the night and be ma listenin ear...
actuali...to me..its like im not enough....hehe...stil got things to talk about to her...hahak....well.....
"when i look at your face,the first thing i noe is yr smile
the cutie lovely smile that i hope its gonna be mine
bills,bills,bills i do not mind as long as i could make sure that you are totally fine...
seein it as a love..seein it as a fren...all i know that it could neva be a foe...
when you have problem, i will be there...juz search and find for me...
i do not know why sometime you be juz keepin quiet...
izzit realli you have nothing to say or its juz a feelin that you feel it wasn't right...
its reallli up to you to make your choice..all i want is you to be happy with wat you searching for..all i could do for you is to pray best wishes to the person that i love...."
"ITS LONG TYM SINCE....."
well..its a long tym since i update this blog its about 3 days...
welli oso forget wat to say...
let me summarise onli lah...
hmmm...that night play bike again....woohhooo....
maybe november bike lisence????
den yesterday gt a game wit NP....
we won...3-2.....such a nice match between them...
and after that meet ma best buddy and chill at bugis...
so tired lah...run here run there during the trainin..
its fun yeah..though tired....
nw i juz got home..
hahaa....
and later be goin out wit yani and lin...
accompany yani buy her things????
i dunno wat she wanna buy....
wah..whole nite thorning ok....
be nappin for 2 hours now...zzzzzzz
and 1 more thing...This month..is a month full of nonsence and stupid things
that happen in ma life..that i neva had done b4.....
cant tell ya...if u wanna noe...well..approach me
hello there...
juz happpen to update here aite...
well tired..juz kum back from werk...
and today funni...
me and ma bro take out the wrong stock...
and u guess wat?its not a light stock...but...
a pellet full of sacks of rice...
wah..so tired ah....
juz now neva go skool...
go skool.....tot wanna play games...
den get a prank call...from izal...damn u!!!!
wel....today akak lin treat played pool lah kat Lucky plaza...
hehhe...tankz....
well....ni pun later guess be playin bike again....
around tamp...
hahaha....yesterday oso i do the same....
2moro there's a game with NP if im not rong...
that's all...
ad i forget....the game with Tp during bathing tym...
i fall dwn siah!!!!!
well actuali this is yesterday event that happen...
hmmm...cant go to skool...i cant wake up lah!!
so juz stay in ma bed til about 2pm...
den ask ma mum to get ready ma break fast food!!!
haha...go to skool for hockey frenly game against Tp again...
last tym we lose ....2-0....
yesterday we won....3-1....
after the game....
gt fitness trainin by Gary...
haha....tired lah ma legs....
hmmmm....sunday....nahting much...
juz stay at home....and follow ma dad go buy food for breakin fast...
and after that its the first tym lah i ride ma dad bike...
hmmm kinda kancong lah....ma dad onli taught me playin the clutch and gear 1 ONLI...
hmmm....i kinda good at there oradi..when i ask ma dad to teach me change gear...
he say im nt ready yet....
so at night i borrow his bike and played...
hahhaa....i learn it maself...so played abit wit changin gear...
first tym yeah...i made it!!!!
so i played till gear 3 yeah!!!!
hmmm...so where do i start here
i woke up kinda late about 2plus in the noon
so tired lah kuz yesterday night helped some1 out in her project
so yeah..that's why...
SO FIRST OF ALL, I WOULD LIKE TO WISH THIS LOVELY?,CUTIE?,ADORABLE?,FUN? GIRL NAME SHAFIRA...
A HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY....
Yesterday...break fast with the soccer girls in skool...to be more precise...
the stadium...hahaha....watch em play the game..the opponent team was quite strong though...but the skool team won 2-0 if im nt mistaken lah...
celebrate the victory with em jugak...
after the game...wait for fira and yani..
fira come first...so i pass her the notes + her prezie....
and i ask waana chill for a while?go for a supper or what???
me myself was trembling...okie..so the answer was nah...well...
quite disappointed right but??i cant force,whu is she to me???
and i dun wanna to repeat history....maybe not ma day i suppose...
so next wait for yani....
so wait for yani...walked together to the station....
and meet fira there....
so me yani and the other girls have supper at Bk yishun...
at first Fira like...nah i dun wan...den dunno lah...by body language yeah...
so we chill there for a while before going off....
hmmm...so sent/company her home is the correct adverb i think....be a man/guy/boi hahahahha.....well...we chitchat all way long from yishun to jurong and at certain station she sleeps..hehehe...well tired i guess from the training...
she drop at her bustop and i sit at the bus till i reach lavender and transfer to nightrider to reach ma home...
i take about 2hr 15 min...to get home...hee...such a long journey...
but..well worth it lah...all i noe...hope so....
today sit at home...maybe clean the house or wat lah...but lazy wakakaka
see how the day goes....got a last min plan or what...
Last year...i have promise myself...not to walk into that valley again...
but..i juz walk thru it...thru and fro yesterday night/this very morning about 1245am
memories came and flashed in ma mind...its juz feel like a lightning strike without the sound of thunder...
I do not know why...and the real reason why i care so much to walk again thru that valley...i noe nahting much will happen but...it seem that i feel very uncomfortable being with her...in late night....i myself do not know why i feel that way....
goin there..helpin her out in her project and go home....
During the tym teaching her how to proceed with her upcoming project...i kinda do not like her reactions..its like really makin me think so much about the past..
well to u..if u happen to read this...im sorry...i hope i do not ditch about u in this entry...
Nah...i don't noe girl...what's up in ya head that time.....i really juz cant talk....
cant ask....and i juz don want to be the normal me of being over-concern and stuff bout u animore....since we are jux a stranger nw..i suppose to...and a fren that i juz realise in 1145pm on 6 Oct....and maybe only after that night
all i noe in ma head is that...why im so shift up to help you....ma help here is sincere if u wanna noe..i dont expect anithing in return from u.....juz....be yourself nw....and....i noe u dont trust me(so dun talk things bout our past again if situation like yesyerday happen again)....i hope in certain things u will...
like the project....
i dun really mind if u wanna stay away from me..if that makes u better....i will juz support u...
All i noe is that from the very first moment i enter the valley...
i was confused and....when i leave the valley...
a phase in ma mind "you a sore loser" by her...
and that's stuck in me for the whole night..
M i realy a sore loser??????
The Old KaI
PleAsE LeAVe ComMeNt On Ma TaGbOaRd ThAnKzzzzzzz
ObSeRvEd Ma eYeBrOwS..AnY DifF???
"""iM fEeLin So CoLd Now...Can SoMeOnE GimMe A hUg!!!"""
hmmm im kinda feelin so cold now...
so let me warm myself by writin some stupid stuff...
Life has never failed to give us happiness
But there will always be the other side
What should we do when obstacles strike
Stand strong and say that we will never give up
Loving someone is not easy
Missing someone that you like too aint easy
So what can we do?
Juz be brave and tell to them that you misses them
Its alright rather than keeping it to yourself
At times,you felt so lonely
you do not where to head for
no matter how hard you search for a companion
there will be atleast one who are really willin to be wit you
Smile even if you are sad so pple will notice you
They will be there to ask about the well-being of you
So...do not hesitate to answer them cuz they care.
Lastly...dun give up when you failed
Kuz it will bring you down rather den bringin you up back
Dont be dishearten when you failed in love
As it is only the begining...
well these words come truly from me...
never expected right???
gud morning....today reach skool late as usual....15 minutes...
nw...updating this blog....
hmmm...yesterday i cant bring maself out from the bed and neva even kum to skool..
sleep at home...i tink its due to the tiredness when i went over to JB...
because that night i cant get to sleep..because there's a cockroach sneak into ma shorts..walau.....it's so yulky lah.....
yesterday oso i neva able to get sleep...i dunno lah why...
so i lied down at ma mattress and sing songs..ani song that come into ma mind...
but i realise that the songs that i sang are all about missin someone and loving someone....m i crazy????wakakkakaka....though i aint no girl now..
yesterday werk tym....damn parkin tired lah...i carry how many sack of rice oso i dunno....wah...but damn fun lah..hahha..
well that's all..nahting much...
today must break fast at home...soup tulang!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hmmmm...well..today i take leave at pm but leave skool at 230pm....
hmmm...went to cityhall accompany someone to return her workin attire...
so take the chance again.....
well..kinda cute lah....she use her big eye fly specs..cant even see her eyes lah...
please take it off aite....
ask ma best fren along to be a stalker...
kuz he and me going to JB for walk2..buy things lah....
first tym i mean...we were like totally strangers there lah....
wakakakaka...like gunduu....juz walk straight only....
towards city square.....
fun lah....seems like so many things that i wanna buy but....not financially stable yet...wakakakkaa.....
buy maself a wallet and a new cap...tats all...and a prezie....
but im nt sure lah whether the prezie will be like by the bday girl...
hope she will like it...haa....that's ma intention...searchin for what she craving for??????
haa...if u hapen to read this...i guess u noe what i get for u aite....
but i dunno when can i meet u up again....soon???before...or maybe after math....
well...a bad news....no hockey tournaments....ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH....ruin all ma plans
that's all lah....hee..stayin up see vcd....
hmmm...yesterday is 2nd Oct....its Yani bird-day and belated Sham on 1st Oct...
so me and hazlin leave the school abut 2 den headed to bugis to look for somethings..
prezie for the bday boi and girl...
hazlin was really like shoppin lah...every shop we enter...juz to see whether she like any apparels....
so i also window shop and buy a new pemudas..and i was wearing nw..hhehee...
later be going to JB for breaking fast....
let's continue...we walked to and fro bugis....lookin for the cakes...haha...
and we caught 1 at COLD STORAGE...so budget lah we all....
Yani get a shirt and skirt...fuyo....cant wait to see lah if she wears it..
as for sham...he gets a shirt haha..white kolor..kuz he always in black....
we break fast at Sakura...the funny thing is that...in a table of 5 of us...
3 get calls from the family members to mention that we can start breakin...
but at the restaurant itself..the time is nt yet....onli our table has started eating the dates....
well..i oso dunno why...sey...well after that ...
go a place and cut cake...hahaha..coooool...
after that me, lin sham walked around.....
walked walked and met her...though i kinda like nvm...maybe nt ma day
but...find her....
well..den wait after her work..chill for a while...meet naz her cousin...
and we chill town till 12 and went home...
tiring day...i gt home...my knee starts to feel the pain again...
nw need to use knee guard again..damn....
so stubborn of me....
well today ma bro is back from manila...the whole fam go to
the budget terminal to fetch him..wakakka....actuali nahting to comment today...
but..today is the first tym ma family break fast together...
all the members are there and guess what..the table is full of dishes...
yeah...
lets talk about saturday....sat i break fast at ma granny house....
all the family were there...hmmm..i kinda eat alot if i were to break fast at
ma kuzin house...its like i eat all the dishes that were ready on the table...
after i eat i juz relax..watch tv and lie down at the floor....
when i was lying on the floor....ma aunt and ma granny started to ask bout ma ex...
hmmm...i kinda not like it...its because they kinda guess whats the reason im nt being fren with her now..aiyo....makin ma life difficult...
so all the reasons they give to me...i juz say ya...ya..yes...and nod ma head always
and the only reason that i kinda shock is that ma aunt say im a playboi...
wakakkaka.....do i look like one viewers??please leave me a comment at ma tagboard
ok.....willin to hear ani comment whether do i look like a playboi...
that's all...
I'm still waiting...
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