LiLzYkAi iS BaCk To SeArCh FoR loVe...

`'`30 March 2006`'`

I woke up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I was
Feenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years, tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuz
Ever since my girl left me, my whole life came crashin

Cant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put u thru u still stuck
Around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right, I
Really wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl

Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through
Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing u
Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made me
Be so happy but now so lonely

|LiLzYkAi BrEaKiNg aT 10:39:00 PM|

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`'`28 March 2006`'`

It had been days I’ve got sleepless nights
Feelin cold and missin bout’ you that I have unite
How can one day I feel olrite
Without you callin me or message me at night

As I woke up in the middle of the night
Lookin out of ma bed from ma left to ma right
Searchin for ma cell phone that had been silent all night
If there were any message from ma 1 and only swethart

Ever since you enter ma world
Things have change the way it was
I’m glad that I meet a girl like you
Who’s caring, sweet and that’s wat I love about you

Though it just a couple of days I met you
I feel like a hundred days without you girl
I really hope we could do just like couples do
But the fact is I’m the 1 that have fallen in love wit you

As I noe for sure that you can’t be mine
But every little second you’re in ma mind
I will keep those moments that you’re kind
To me, you’re the only 1 that’s in ma mind

Ever since you enter ma world
Things have change the way it was
I’m glad that I meet a girl like you
Who’s caring, sweet and that’s wat I love about you

You always brightened me up and make me smile
U neva failed to brighten up ma day in every mile
Missin you is wat I always felt during the days
But wat can I say that fate doesn’t lies in our hands

Ever since you enter ma world
Things have change the way it was
I’m glad that I meet a girl like you
Who’s caring, sweet and that’s wat I love about you

|LiLzYkAi BrEaKiNg aT 6:55:00 PM|

27-march-2006

juz after werk....
alone.....no bros at werk place...
haha....

well.........
im confused on your msg dear...
i dun wana ask u nw...or in msg...
u juz wait till wen i ask u...

yesterday work suckz....
customer complain bout me....
maybe i do not have enuf slep tats y
pple say im actin fussy...

actualli....i miz u dear...
tapi we r nw busy...
even to hear yr voice i think twice...
so as nt to disturb u...
k lah...
tats all for 2day....

i gt nahting much to rite...
hopin to meet her soon....

peace 1 love..lilzy kai

|LiLzYkAi BrEaKiNg aT 12:00:00 AM|

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`'`25 March 2006`'`

hahaha....
juz reach home from work....
tired....but nt sleepy yet...
soon be knockin off at ma bed...
juz checkin ma mail and stuffs...

i duno wat the reason y i not sleepy yet...
i have found myself missin her....
i juz miss her....
miss her....
i oso duno lah eh?
y muz i fall for a person that oradi attached?

hmmmmmmmmm...................................
well....lurve is blind like you say
but at 1st...i fall for her b4 she attached...
but i was "slow" hahaha.....

this go out to her.....
i will wait till there'z come a new girl to rescue me???
but for nw...i will stil lurvin u dear...

2nd date...to the beach????
hehe....hopefully u read dis....

peace 1 love...lilzy kai

|LiLzYkAi BrEaKiNg aT 8:33:00 AM|

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`'`24 March 2006`'`

hee.....
okie dear.....
i got nahting to do...
so i b riting for u to read this....

well....u r the 1st girl to open ma heart back to love...
but for u....i love u before i meet u...
maybe bkuz every nite i listen to your voices..n laughters
hee....but you r some one else ones now...

hey you know wat>???
i still haf the msg u given me that why i neva rescue u up in ma mind...
hehehe....tats so swet....if i could turn back the tym..
ni im writin b4 goin to werk...

for u to read....
hehe....to think our swet memories....
that we have been through together....
dear.....i love u....
though i noe that its hard for u...
to stuck in between 2 guys....

hmmmm..............
when will u be solo/single???
hahaha....
so u will acept ma love hehehe....
im juz kiddin syg .....

peace 1 love...lilzy kai

|LiLzYkAi BrEaKiNg aT 6:29:00 PM|

23 march 2006

A day that changes ma life???
haha....actuali im waitin for this day to come
though i neva get wat i promise her for ma exam grades
get to meet her......treatin her like ma girl-fren...

a date wit her???
haha....its all planned in ma mind...
im sorry dear...neva tell u earlier...
together wit ma bro,shahul....

u r the 1st girl that i treat since den....
hope u really enjoy the day...
and the laughter that we share together...
u r juz so special that i cant let ma eyes of you...

hmmmm.....
wen i look at you ...
i stil wonder....y i was "slow" to rescue u from that moment....
hehehe....
will there b a 2nd date wit her.??
though she's attached???

peace 1 love...lilzy kai

|LiLzYkAi BrEaKiNg aT 1:38:00 AM|

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`'`18 March 2006`'`

I’ve been wanting to say this to you
But I could not find time to get it into you
I hope the stupid reasons that you’ve given me
Keeps you satisfied & haunts you if you were to think of me

Four years ago when we get to know one another
I thought we would be friends just like the others
But as months passed by with each other
I have found that I love you more than my mother

Soon as we get to the next level of our life
Poly is next we headed for the rest of our teens life
That’s where when problems start to arise
At the end we fallen apart & we say bye bye

Some people say that this what love does
As money bring bitches, bitches bring love
And to all the mother fucking haters
Where’s the true meaning of love???

Thanks to all the good deeds you had done
That’s always had been in my mind
But soon it will be out of ma mind
As I could not accept what’s wrong I’ve done

Two years plus since we’ve been together
I thought that it would last forever
But I was all wrong, but not to her
Left me alone & leave my life forever

Ku sedar kini ia menjadi pudar
Hari semakin tawar menguji kesabaran
Dahulu kala bila kau kata I love u
Bolehkah ku percaya semua perkataan itu

Itu semua sudah menjadi satu kenangan
Bila aku duduk temenung melihat awan
Terbayang-bayang wajah mu di mataku
Tetapi apa yang tak ku sangka kau meninggal kan ku

|LiLzYkAi BrEaKiNg aT 6:10:00 PM|

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`'`15 March 2006`'`

Seventeen years I have gone through I wana you to hear
Ups and down that I have been wanting people to hear
Now I be reminiscing since I was 6 years
The little moments in the primary school that was in tears

The life in the school is a memorable
Every recess time we are all playing marble
But when it comes to project or homework
Let’s make it a fast and pleasant work

At P6 graduation night that’s where I first cried
Never had I felt so sad when it has fallen apart
All the friends that I have for 6 years
It’s now time for us to move to our new years

Next step is my secondary school mates
The express streams that I wana make a state
To all of you fuckers that had team together
Let me say that all of you are just plain sucker

The first true love that I found in her
I make a thought that it would last forever
But it was all wrong but not to her
Left me all alone and leave my life forever

My NPC members are all I’m heading for
There’s shahul, wah, budi and lots more
They are the ones that I headed for
When I was in pain, low, in far or more

Poly life is what I’ve been searching for
Though it keeps me very busy late up to four
Having fun mates and girls that I’m looking for
But none of them are good as before

One girl thinks that I’m popular in school
But that just seem not right for me, fool
Some of them that say “hi” to me
In return, I’ll say”hi” as a friendly gesture from me

There’s come a new girl that enters my life
Who always brighten me up to make me smile
She will just go an extra mile
Just to check whether I’m doing fine

Juz hearing your voice everynite had make me smile
U neva failed to brighten up ma day in every mile
Missin you is wat I always felt during the days
But wat can I say that fate doesn’t lies in our hands

Someday you'll remember why you fell for me
Why never you said goodbye and u juz let me be
Keep forever mending and miss out on the love
That is never ending story to the girl I love,

Friends are the best company
When you’re feeling lonely
But some friends can’t make us believe
That one day, they will all leave

|LiLzYkAi BrEaKiNg aT 3:21:00 AM|

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`'`13 March 2006`'`

I got the need lady I reali need to know
Give me the truth just what the heck wrong with the show
when you tell me tat you re sorry you just had to go
Do u feel how heartbroken when u left me all alone?

My patience was runnin out and I gotta run
you and me I tot we used to have a lot of fun
Reminising the moments that we had together
Craving on the trunks saying our love remain forver

Can't take another heartbreak for the things you did
Knowing that I love you so baby but why you do the things you did
Left me for dead baby girl you hurt me so
My eyes are bleeding badly its now so redish glow

Now I'm on burning on my knees and I'm crying
It's all about the way that you and me feelin
Deep down in your heart when you let me go
I don't doubt you care believe that it will go
The dust is gathering where I standin rite now
I know there's a crackin in this plan so how
After a while and then there just ain't no more
Girl from ma life hw u made me bend or more

Juz hearing your voice everynite had make me smile
U neva failed to brighten up ma day in every mile
Missin you is wat I always felt during the days
But wat can I say that fate doesn’t lies in our hands

Neva I felt this way wen u tell me the truth
The truth that maybe a hurt to me to move on with ma lyfe
But wat I could say to u that comes from ma heart
A broken heart that says we aint no more in contact

Someday you'll remember why you fell for me
Why you said goodbye and u juz let me be
Keep forever mending and miss out on the love
That is never ending story to the girl I love,

peace 1 love...lilzykai

|LiLzYkAi BrEaKiNg aT 11:08:00 AM|

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`'`12 March 2006`'`

hahaha.....
its 4:00am....in the morn....
practising ma rap....
for ma next recordin...
at Quetorious house,ma kuzin...
hopefully....tuesday....14 march....

i was awake bkuz i wana try whether the
software tat ma kuzin gave me can save...
hehe....i explore and finally i got it...
i need some supervise from ma kuzin,Quetorious
in makin the beats and music....
for ma upcomin recordin maybe...

hehe....welll.....enuf of ma hiphop life...
nw is bout ma personal life...
hee....i duno lah wat to say oradi...
onli she will noes me...kuz she have the crystal balls..hehehe
i oso haf lah dear rite????

hmmmm....
she is the 1 that i often chat wit every nite...
hehe...well...b seein her soon....
and gotta treat her....
plus a movie ticket....???
hehehe....u noe lah .........
hey..u noe wat?if 1 day i neva msg u...
i feel like something is amiss sey....

be doin ma beats....

okok....
peace 1 love...lilzykai...

|LiLzYkAi BrEaKiNg aT 4:15:00 AM|

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`'`10 March 2006`'`

hey.....today is a miracle....
i tot today is not recordin as Quetorious say he's nt free
den wen i was sleepin...he kalled and say that today do ...
the recordin....

haha....i was stunned man...
neva do any rehearsal or wat....
i juz to get know dis thing 2 days ago wen ma bro tell me...
i oso was shock he wans me to feature in his song...
for rappin...

well...i juz give it a shot lah...
haha....den after the recordin...we cant believe ourselves....
we gt a recordin????
hehehe...

next maybe i will ask Quetoriuos to teach me in doing some beats...
den i will make beats...and ma bro sing to ma beat...
haha....this is wat i say....wen a person is crazy bout hiphop...
its all he wana do....

hmmmm....maybe if i could achieve or make ma own beats
plus ma lyrics...guess wat....
i will rap a song bout a girl that enter ma life even for a short
while...but make ma life a big difference....
if u were to hapen to read this post....
i noe...u will comment bout it hahaa....

maybe nxt tues oso be recordin 1 more song???

peace 1 love...lilzykai...

|LiLzYkAi BrEaKiNg aT 1:44:00 AM|

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`'`09 March 2006`'`

im so bored....
off day...dunno wat to do....
dreamin...lazyin out....

peace 1 love...lilzykai...

|LiLzYkAi BrEaKiNg aT 1:12:00 AM|

well....today work is so tired...
being alone since yesterday....
hehe....well...actuali im happy with the life i had now...

havin a fren like her...tat i had love...and like???
hehe....eventhough we have not meet...
it looks like we have known each other for long...

she is sweet...that one i nt lieing...
hmmm...i wonder....does she had love me once...
i onli noe she like me once...

hehe....2moro n friday is off day...
dunno wat m i do....
if i nt active....i may fall sick

she is once ma sayang,ma dear....
does she also???once...hmmm...

lookin forward on nxt tues....
for ma first recording of rappin wit ma bro...
hehehe.....duno lah wat to say....
being werkin all day long...

duno wen the tym to enjoy...hehe

peace 1 love...lilzykai

|LiLzYkAi BrEaKiNg aT 12:47:00 AM|

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`'`08 March 2006`'`

im hurt...maybe nt...
im shy...yes i m....
bkuz i dun wana say those werds as yet kuz i noe
that she is nt the type to b in relationship
since the 1st i get to know her...

n nw...i juz need to follow with the flow...
to her...tankz u...im fallen for you...
after everynite gettin to hear u...
laughin session 2gehther wit u....
dear??syg??...hehe =}
onli the 1 who suppose to read dis will understand...

the laughin session marks our frenship...
m i rite...?
u r the 1 tat always make ma day...
n smile...all day long...
your concern and understandin...

maybe....1 day....
things might change...
well whu noes....rite?
if u hapen to read this post...
dun b shock ok???
btw...tankz for being honest wit me...
i appreciate that...though we have a slepless nite 2gether....

peace 1 love...lilzykai...
i love u...hehe only u noes...
may it be a secret 4 us onli ok?

|LiLzYkAi BrEaKiNg aT 12:15:00 AM|

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`'`06 March 2006`'`

Life is bore after a breakup
But that do not stop me from being a fuck up
Continuing ma lyfe is much better
Den sulkin at things bout you fucker

Hanging around with ma brothers
Out late at nite till being screen by police
That’s wat we always did
Juz like a barbeque pit

Smoking is wat I look aite
Whether its day or nite
Tats wat company me now
Wen Im down or low

Pool has fiiled ma lyfe
Wit skills and laughter
Parkway, bugis, hougang
The places where time is played

After a few months down the road
I see myself walkin at a still road
There I found an unknown love
Which I wana make it bloom by love

Tokin to her nearly everynite
Neva it comes to me as a bore
I duno why I juz like to hear her
Maybe haf I fallen for her…

She is a year older
Though I dun care much
I juz like her personality
Tats make me attract to her more….

|LiLzYkAi BrEaKiNg aT 10:41:00 PM|

tired.....on friday,3-3-06....
breakin for 3 hours straight juz to get
back ma skills....
since i stop a few months tym ago...

its very tiring for me....
but atleast i could work out ma body...

hahahaa....airtrack/airswipe....
im kumin your way now....
hopefully i could master tat...
now i gt the whippin..and landing...

so i muz nt quit halfway...
i need to master it...
although im oradi an old timer in tampines for breakin..
hehehe. . . .

well....honestly...i like tokin to her...
i duno why...hearing her voice makin me very cheerful and happy...
hmmmmm.....
maybe its ma fate that i noe her???
well.. onli god noes that aite ...

okie....tats all for today...
after work.bored....
both ma blood brothers have fallen sick...
and me to sick oso. . .
hehe....tats wat i kalled blood brothers...
all in the same boat now....

peace 1 love...lilzy kai

|LiLzYkAi BrEaKiNg aT 12:57:00 AM|

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`'`01 March 2006`'`

today....
work is so much stressed.....
like normal wen stress....go n take 5 minute break....
smokin chiillin out hahaha

Goin back home....messaging some1 tat i treat special....
maybe she duno...maybe she noes....
hahahaha

kumin back at home....
den suddenly...a fuck up person.....
chat wit me sayin she bought her labtop n lost her hp...
wat the helllllllllllllllllll
why muz she tell me????

so i say ...fuck up....
its all fuck up
she tink i will contact????
no way man....

hahahahahahaha.......2day was juz a very fuck up day.....
with all the things hapen to me...
haha
but the girl i noe is sweet...
have i fallen her?????
well....i duno ....

heeeeeeee
workin 2moro....
tats will b ma routine for 1 month....

keep updating wen i gt sumting to share...

peace 1 love...lilzy kai

|LiLzYkAi BrEaKiNg aT 1:28:00 AM|

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